Unforgiven or Forgiven ?

CCW sat in Starbucks waiting for a friend to arrive .. It was 8pm .. At 8.15 , his friend turned up , face grim with a melancholy look in his eyes ... They shook hands and his friend , who in this post decided only to be known as ZzZ , told CCW what had befell upon him during the past few months ..

'ZzZ was quite a shy dude who seldomed became involved in many things happening in the class . Often , he would talk to his friend beside him or on the next table ... He was quiet at sometimes and only raised his voice at certain times , even that did not let him use his anger much ..

He had a friend , named F who was the more outgoing type . F always seemed to be the centre of attraction and he messed around alot with girls and his friends alike . However , F had a weakness . He cannot stand a minor insult to his face even if it was in a joking way . He would be what we know as "emo" for a moment seeking comfort from the many girls he plays with .. ZzZ was in a bad mood one day and raised his voice to F , momentarily forgetting F's weakness . Immediately , F , was mortified and went into a state of melancholy .. But , that's besides the point ..

Now , ZzZ liked a girl in his class , AaA . F knew about it and cheekily said to ZzZ " I'll leave her for you , it's yours .. " ZzZ showed no emotion but in his mind he suspected something . ZzZ managed to get in talking terms with AaA but because of his shyness , he could not prolong the conversation . However , he did have one very long convo with her before an examination . F had repeatedly mentioned about not touching AaA and insisteed that ZzZ 'take her for his own " . ZzZ had of course no intention whatsoever to "take " her for his own and was constantly in a bad mood because of other personal matters. What he hadn't expected to see was F "play"ing with AaA when for the past few months , he has been waxing eloquent on not "playing" with AaA . ZzZ was stung . However , he did not show it . Instead , he just went on with his work and only lamented the hipocrisy in his inner self . However , he was not sure the fault . Eventually , unable to take it any longer , ZzZ shifted away from the school and went to PJ , deleting further painful memories of the incident .. He had forgiven F but he can't ever forgive himself as this was not the first nor second time this thing had happened ... '

CCW remained seated as ZzZ bid him farewell and went off . As he comtemplated ZzZ's decision , he realised that he too had to make a very big decision before . But , he had failed and broke . ZzZ's revelation to start afresh unsettled him .. And nothing that he did could ever shake of the feeling ..

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