Thursday, April 21, 2011

Failure and the Return of HD

I could do nothing as I collected my trial exam results. There was a pit of darkness in my heart as i looked at the results. One word was enough to describe the results.

Atrocious.

Yes. Used even by two of my lecturers, my results were indeed atrocious. To think that I had sunk this low is unbearable. Imagine. Being at the top of your form, only stumble near the finale. It is hideous. The red marks that litter the question paper, the remarks so sharp, they cut through the very heart.

This was unacceptable.
This cannot continue.
I have slacked so much in the past year. Even my Advanced Subsidiary was inferior to so many other candidates.

This has to stop.
I have to regain what i lost in the past. I have to take back what I had unconsciously thrown away.

My concentration has depleted so much, its sickening. There's nothing to put the blame on. I'm the only one at fault. The chaos my family causes cannot be an excuse here. I barely even listen to them for starters.

It is time.
Time to bring back the one person who has been the stepping stone for my success.
Its time to bring back..

HD