Correction of a 'Flaw'

Now, it seems to me that apparently Andrew has written a flaw in his latest post. What is that flaw, you ask? Allow me to present an excerpt from his recent post and see if you can detect the flaw...

Anger. Sloth. Gluttony. Envy. Jealousy. Pain. Guilt. Greed. These were the negative forces that i had stripped off from myself. I removed them from myself so that i could control myself and not be consumed by the dark. As cliched as it sounds, i understood the magnitude of the situation. HD was looking at me with that serious eyes of his.

"What are you gonna do?" he asked, "You knew this would happen the moment you became invulnerable and succumbed to your weakness." I nodded. "I know," I muttered,"This is something i will have to settle fast." Eight entities. I would have to face them again and prove that i could go on without them. The emotions. Negative feelings. I do not need them. Yet, they are part of the human God created.

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Did you notice the so-called flaw? Because i didn't. But anyway let us highlight the flaw that has been discovered.

HD's words rang in my ears as i grasped the situation. I understood what he was trying to say. As i opened my mouth to reply, i paused. Anger. Sloth. Gluttony. Envy. Jealousy. Pain. Guilt. Greed. These were the negative forces that i had stripped off from myself. I removed them from myself so that i could control myself and not be consumed by the dark. As cliched as it sounds, i understood the magnitude of the situation. HD was looking at me with that serious eyes of his.

"What are you gonna do?" he asked, "You knew this would happen the moment you became invulnerable and succumbed to your weakness." I nodded. "I know," I muttered,"This is something i will have to settle fast." Eight entities. I would have to face them again and prove that i could go on without them. The emotions. Negative feelings. I do not need them. Yet, they are part of the human God created.

Don't ask me why but apparently the last sentence was a flaw. Now, I'm not here to completely explain to you what is going on in Andrew's head while he wrote this. The explanation is for him alone to provide, if he wishes to. I'm merely the advisor and all i'm gonna do is shed some light over this matter.

Negativity.

It is wanted and yet unwanted depending on the situation. The problem here is that there is argument that GOD did not create, to quote, "all the negativity". Now, i do not know what you learn in arguments but the quote is a flaw by itself.

"All the negativity"?

Can anyone be really sure that God did not create all the negativity?

This, is a perfect example of overgeneralization.

The phrase "all the negativity" is assuming that God has no part at all in those negativity that we humans have. If so, where did those negativity come from? Positivity? Are we safely sure that Newton's third law is applicable here?

No.

I may not be the one that wrote the subject flaw but i do know that the flaw is NOT a flaw. Whether or not this is unsupported remains to be seen. I would like to delve further into deciphering whether the creation of negativity was in fact, the work of God but more of that on another date. Perhaps a couple of lines ought to clarify things up for now.

The fact that there is negativity in humans proves that humans are not perfect. In fact, they should not be. A world isn't fit for perfection and it will never be. And God DID NOT create perfect humans. How can i be so sure about this? Because perfection is only an illusion. No human is perfect. They may be perfect in the exterior but definitely not in the interior. You might say that certain ups have been the catalyst for which negativity is born in humans. But, let me ask you a question.

Just who do you think it was that created negativity?

Is it the nature of humans that developed such an intricate feeling? No. Was it the fact that humans created such things to keep themselves in check? No.

But i would say that God, if you ever believed in one, created the dark and light of humans. He did that and gave us one more push so that the balance will be kept.

CHOICE.

Just that and that alone is the determinant. That's all there is to it. Humans choose. God creates.

HD

The Commencing

I leaned on my car as i viewed the sunset that filled the sky with an orange blaze. This was one of those times where the world does not seem so bad. I breathed in the air as the scenery etched itself in my memory. This was something to remember, for as long as i exist. The orange sky. The white clouds. The setting sky. Everything was perfect. Although, i knew reality was not a bit like that.

"This is just like you," a voice said, "I knew i would find you here." I turned to see HD beside me, taking in the scenery as i was. I nodded. "Yeah, this is one of those places where i can relax and forget about reality." HD snorted. "Whatever you do, you can't runaway from reality. No matter how much you try to forget, you cannot forget facts. Ignore them as you might, but there are still there. Which is why i'm here."

I looked at him, eyebrows raised.

"What do you mean?"

"I'm talking about what you did last time. The fact that you threw away certain things to get along with your life. The fact that you gave me your anger, sloth, gluttony, envy, jealousy, pain, guilt and greed just so you can go on. The fact that you gave them to me because you cannot control them. And the assumption that i could control it. Well, i could. But only to a certain extent. I did not realize that each of those forces that you gave me gained an entity of its own at the moment when you were at your weakest. I presume you know what i'm talking about?"

HD's words rang in my ears as i grasped the situation. I understood what he was trying to say. As i opened my mouth to reply, i paused. Anger. Sloth. Gluttony. Envy. Jealousy. Pain. Guilt. Greed. These were the negative forces that i had stripped off from myself. I removed them from myself so that i could control myself and not be consumed by the dark. As cliched as it sounds, i understood the magnitude of the situation. HD was looking at me with that serious eyes of his.

"What are you gonna do?" he asked, "You knew this would happen the moment you became invulnerable and succumbed to your weakness." I nodded. "I know," I muttered,"This is something i will have to settle fast." Eight entities. I would have to face them again and prove that i could go on without them. The emotions. Negative feelings. I do not need them. Yet, they are part of the human God created. HD turned his gaze to what was left of the setting sun.

"Looks like i don't have a choice. I'll lend you a hand in this matter. After all, it is my problem,too."

I smiled as i stare at the sky. The days are gonna get rough. Its time to do what i have done before. To break down the negativity that resides within my body. To change what is there to be changed. To minimize the side effects. To make sure that i do not succumb to the temptations of negativity. This is the showdown between us and what i have thrown away.

This is the Commencing.

CCW

The Beginning

The starting of a new life. Or is it really a new life? Did I turn over a new leaf? Did I change from my old self? Did I do something that signify a difference to which i was leading my life with?

This is the beginning of a new dawn.

The rise of one who has been through hell and came back to once again regain himself.

I compose myself as i sat down and looked at the immense pile of work that awaited me, some done, some half-finished, the rest untouched. I heaved a sigh as i pulled the nearest stack of paper towards me and begin to write.

It was not as though it was something new to me. In fact, this was normal for someone like me. Expectations had to be met. Goals had to be achieved. Visions must be fulfilled. That is how i get on with life. Even so, one can hardly not let out a sigh of exasperation with such a workload. Studies to be gone through. Books to be perused. Ideas to be laid out. Plans to be worked out and executed. Such things may be detrimental but this is who i am.

It is the beginning of journey.

There are many things out there that i have to regain. Many things that i have to accomplish. Not to forget the increasing amount of stress that i have to cope with. The tension, burden and endless assignments, to be managed in a given time or at leisure. This is merely the prelude for something else.

However, no matter how much i have to bear, i'm not alone in this.

I have HD with me to keep things in check. Together, there is nothing that we cannot do. Obstructions will be destroyed. Barriers will be broken. All of this for the sake of a better future. Come rain or shine, we'll weather through it. Nothing can stop our journey for future. This is not the end of something old. This is the continuity, the proceeding of what we have worked for. The journey has just started. The gears which have been oiled, began their movements. The power cogs are functional.

This is the Beginning.

CCW

Reconstruction

I stood in the deserted graveyard, next to the broken gravestones that signified the return from my death. I cast a gloomy eye at the remains of the graveyard. Here lies the past, the present and the future. That which has been the breaking of my spirit and the rebuilding of the heart. This was where i reconstruct.

I glanced at the moss-filled tombstones that litter the ground. Two of them caught my eye as it was not ones which were there before.

They read;

Endurance is not just the ability to bear a hard thing but to turn it into glory

Perseverance At the end of every challenge is the beginning of something new

"Found it haven't ya?" a voice said from behind.

I nodded without turning around. "Funny the way you decided to etch the message in my head."I said as HD stood beside me.

HD smirked and said, "What better way of reminding than having it etched here where i was sure you would visit again. This was your origin after all. I was certain that you would visit this place after your reawakening."

Again, i nodded.

This was the very place that sense had been forced into me. The place where i discovered my reason for existence. The place where i regained my reason and logic. The place where he was formed.

This is me building back from where i dropped. Picking up the pieces of my life that i had left when i died. This is the first stepping stone. The one step forward.

The reconstruction.

CCW

Something deep..

The past is there for you to remember your efforts,

The present is there for you to know and take comfort,

The future is there for you to wonder what's coming,

You are here to know exactly why you're standing.

HD

The Death and the Return

(Crooning)

There's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface,

Consuming, Confusing,

This lack of self control i feel is never ending,

Controlling, I can't seem

to find myself again..my walls are closing in...

I felt this way before, so insecure..

(harmonizing)

Crawling in my skin , these wounds they will not heal,

Fear is h0w i fall, Confusing what is real...

Crawling- Linkin Park

Yes, the title is true..

I died again.. and yet, i returned again..

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It's a metaphor, idiots..

As i lay on my deathbed, i compose my epitaph..

" Here lies a person who tried his best but just couldn't give his best.. He dies here in honor and also serve a reminder to the world.. It is not what one can do or what one should do, but what one must do that sets the system in motion"

And as i close my eyes for the journey beyond, i'm stopped by another voice that has been with me since i was 15.

"Is this really how you want it to end?"

I sighed.

I feel broken, dispirited, lost and painstakingly annoyed with world that i live in, i thought. If i could die and relieve the stress, wouldn't it be better?

The voice chuckled as though he had read my mind.

"You have a long way to go. Mistakes, what of it? Depression, what of it? Pain, what of it? You really think that dying can save you from the misery that you have casted on yourself? Look at you. When i first met you, you were a reasonable person, pertaining to reasoning, logic and sometimes pure instinct when your heart tells you so. Even then, you always chose the right path. Where is that person now? Look at what you have become. Just because of mistakes, you falter. Just because of unbearing pain, you stop."

I listened to the voice and i realized that what he said was true.

Yes, I have made mistakes, more mistakes than normal people my age would have made.

Yes, I piled misery on myself,but wasn't that because i was the bearer of pain?

Yes, I have been pained over and over again but as he said,

"So what?"

Because of the burden that became heavier and heavier, a single mistake caused me to think irrationally. I have forgotten the essentials, the reason as to why I, who have been burdened, have lived on and survived till today. I have forgotten myself. The reason of my existence.

My eyes which have been gaunt and haunted,regained a bit of my former self.

But, the pain was still there. The suffering that i had inflicted on myself, still showed in the wounds of my heart. I still felt dispirited.

"You are not alone in this matter. Your mistakes are mine as well. We were both at fault at what happened. But i have already told you. So what of the mistakes? Mistakes are made to be reflected not regretted. I cannot allow you to wallow in the pain anymore. I will draw out the very source of your despair. Let me be your vanguard.. your chevalier. You, the one who revels in despair and sorrow, will return again to face the cruel world that you live in...and i'll be there to bear the pain and the agony as you face it.."

My life flashed through my eyes as i realized what i have become.

A wretch..i had become inhuman.. lost without reason.. and he brought me back..

I died.. and returned once again, to show that i can.. that i will..that i shall forever be..Master of Sorrow..

"If there is no sorrow, then be sorrow. If there is no justice,then be justice. If there is no pain, then be the pain.. If there is no one, then remember me. I am the pain of your wounds, the stress in your veins, the suffering of your plight,and the rage in your heart. If it comes to the end, I'll be there to crush down whoever's in your way.. You are who you are. I am who I am and who you are.I am the heart of your soul."

As his words rang in my ears, i picked myself up. It's not the time to die yet. There are things to do. I'll bear the burden i have and i'll crush those in my way. That is who i have always been. The voice that spoke to me heaved a sigh.

" Really had to reel you in on this one. Now,its time to bring the rain, to kill and be insane,to-"

"relish and bear the pain," i cut in, "Thanks for the wake up call. I feel awake now. Time to set the system running, shall we?"

The voice laughed.

"Let's roll,"

I left the empty graveyard, leaving behind the broken pieces of my death. This is only the beginning. There are many things that i have to do.

Through the rain and through shine,

Nothing's stopping me from taking what's mine,

Get in my way, and we'll crush you,
Everything for the sake of a dream to come true.

CCW